Sadhak & Kali Maharaj Satsang By SriSri 108 Sri Vinod Bihari Das Baba Ji Maharaj
Discontentment (asantosh) is the sign that Kali maharaj is ruling over your mind. This is understood by the thirst Parikshit maharaj felt when he went for hunting after wearing the crown of Jarasandh. Kali searches for holes in your bhakti, in your sadhana to make his way into your mind and as soon as he finds one, he stealthily enters your mind without your slightest realization.
When Parikshit maharaj was chasing Kali yuga to kill him, Kali yuga ran to various places but wherever he went he saw Parikshit maharaj with his bow and arrow in front of him. Finally, he took shelter at his feet. He knew that Parikshit maharaj was a true Kshatriya and followed the principles of Kshatriya dharma sincerely. He would not kill a person come to his shelter. When Parikshit maharaj told him to leave his empire he said that the whole world was his empire, where could he go? Parikshit maharaj said he would give him four places to reside. He said Kali could reside in gambling, himsa (violence), alcohol and vyabhichar (illegal sexual relationships and such deceptive natured people). Kali said these places are dishonoured and condemned. So he asked for another place that is swarna (gold). Here gold refers to property and illegally accumulated money. It doesn't refer to the metal gold. Wherever there is a question of property, you will find the thirst to accumulate more. It brings about great tensions between brothers, father and son, husband and wife and even guru and disciple.
Here amongst diligent sadhus, what is the cause of tensions and quarells? (Understanding that quarells emerge from discontentment which is a sign of Kaliyuga). Here there is no gambling, no alcohol, no obvious violence and no illegal relationships. But there is some not so obvious form of violence, that is mental violence which creates this situation. We act as if we are so friendly and respect vaishnavas but inside we are nesting envy and malevolence for them. Even the slightest hint of these are enough for Kali maharaj to make his way into your mind and take charge.
This not so obvious mental violence is an aparadh. Aparadh are of six kinds: hanti (kill, murder), nindanti (speaking lowly of someone), baideshti (malevolence), vaishnav anabhinandati (to not greet or offer obeisances to a vaishnava on seeing him), krudhyate (to show anger on a vaishnav), jaati na harshate darshane (to not welcome and be pleased to see a vaishnav).
This baideshti refers to mental violence and helps Kali maharaj to take charge over the mind of even diligent sadhaks and slowly introduces the other traits of Kaliyuga and aparadhas as well. Suppose, there is a vaishnava named Madhu. You don't quite like his nature or his activities. You also don't express this to him but like to keep away from him, speaking scarcely and greeting only dandawat pranams and "Radhe Radhe" to him. This will simply not do. Mentally you have aversion from that vaishnava and think lowly of him.
Sri Chaitanya Mahaprabhu says:
"Mor bhakter proti jar kinchit dwesh rahe,
vaishnav holeo se amar priyo nohe"
Meaning: He who has even the slightest (=kinchit) malevolence for my devotee, may he be a vaishnav but he cannot be dear to me.
Here, the word kinchit expresses the need of sheer absence of malevolence for a devotee. It is possible only by loving and respecting vaishnavas as members of the spiritual family of Radha Krishna. Since they and we ourselves have forgotten our real swarupas and have been disillusioned into Maya, we all have faults one or the other, small or big. But that shouldn't hinder our love for each other. Despite disagreements we must strive to respect and love each other through service and hari katha.
Here devotees doesn't mean only sadhus but any devotee of any stage. Sri Krishna says in Shrimad Bhagvat Gita:
"Kaunteya prati janihi na me bhaktah pranashyati"
Meaning: O son of Kunti, know that my devotee never perishes.
"Api chet suduracharo" (in the sloka previous to this sloka) means however faulty the devotee may be; even if the most faulty person in the world is chanting harinaam and wears tilak on his forehead, necklace of tulsi beads, he is to be considered a devotee. And that person will slowly come out of his faults and gradually realize his real swarupa and get ornamented with the traits of a real bhakta. We must not see his faults but respect him as a devotee. Otherwise, we will commit an aparadh. Don't give excuses that this is my godbrother or godsister, so I have a responsibility to correct him or her. No. Have love and compassion, understanding and respect for your god brothers and god sisters. But 'this god brother is younger or junior to me, so I must show him his faults and correct him.' and 'this junior god brother must give me due respect, else it is bad for his bhajan'. This is nonsense. A sadhak must always think of himself as lowliest of all other people. Else, how can he be 'trinadapi sunichena'? Where there is true love, let the other person speak lowly of you, you wouldn't be angry. And where there is lack of love, perhaps even envy, you will backlash at the slightest criticism. So start loving everyone. The more you love, more you will be able to overlook their faults and respect them as devotees. Even if someone speaks lowly of you or says something quite not right, what is the problem? You love him. Just overlook it. A small baby sometimes becomes so angry that he kicks his mother. But the mother's compassion and love doesn't let her take it as an offense. She understands her child's reason to be angry and feeds him or tries tirelessly to soothe him. The mother's love is an example of selfless love, the kind of love devotees must have between themselves.
The lack of this love is the main cause of committing aparadh. The lack of love gives way to envy and malice and ultimately, Kali maharaj takes charge over your mind. The sadhak commits one aparadh after another and the sadhak gets stuck in his path of bhakti. He is unable to proceed further and has to combat many difficulties and hurdles.